Again that trick of strapping the sunset on her back.  Though even she tried to look away and into a green bottle.  Found a ship and sailed off, her dolls packed up in their boxes, eyes-lidded, breathing under the bed.  I heard stories; how she carried an entire city in her ear, how she swallowed a nursery rhyme and it still kicks inside her belly.  Like her, the charcoal sketches I drew of her ran whenever I wept.  I named them after our arguments: that inkblot of a lip is Fucked Up on the Parking Garage Roof, the shadow crumpling in on itself is Falling in Love w/ Your Mother if Only for a Moment.  On the afternoon she returned I was working on one piece, shredding up a white canvas with a penknife, titled Confessing w/ a Brick and a Window.  She stepped onto the porch, but before she could speak I crawled into the opera of her eye, pulling the lid over me like a curtain.  A dim heat bearing down.  A green, drunk halo. Hum.

the weight

by todd dilliard

Todd Dillard is an MFA candidate at the Sarah Lawrence College. His work has appeared in LUMINA, NANOfiction and Pebble Lake Review, where he currently serves as the nonfiction editor.